We're nearly there, but are we?

Thursday was the first day where we ran the whole play, piecing all the scenes together.
It turned out to work OK, however I feel there is a lack of emotion that has been forgotten about. This may be down to the fact that we still have not really focused on any true emotions in relation to the characters in this play or to this hard hitting subject. We have mainly been focusing on the action rather than a deeper feeling. We discussed the line up of the play, seating arrangements for the audience and set design. The last week few days have been working towards finishing off the scenes, each day we have been working on warm ups, such as plastics, which on reflection I feel has been a little bit of wasted time in relation to this subject.
We worked on our torture scenes again, me being partnered with Liza on this one, we had to dismiss the chair we used and work away from using any large props, a rope is what we will use to add to this scene. We also rehearsed our individual dialogues where Rosie, Christina and myself are grouped together. This dialogue scene that we are performing will be at the the scene before the end scene. As we say our lines the others will be performing a death sequence, where they will perform their repetitive deaths. It will start off a silent and slow death and gradually grow faster and faster and more intense with the progression of moans and groans.
Soon myself and Christina will join this death sequence. During this rehearsal I took myself out of the scene and looked at what was being performed, through this I found myself slightly irritated as I felt this scene was not that great. I made this quite clear to Jon, and suggested to perhaps change this scene, suggesting that maybe we could be getting ready to go into the gas chambers, and someone saying "It's just a shower", I felt this would have created a greater tension, as in relation to this unfortunate time, the camp prisoners had no idea that they we're going to be gassed, the prisoners did actually think it was just a shower. I feel this would of created a deeper emotion, as now the audience know the truth of what really was going to happen. I feel this would be far more hard hitting to an audience rather than just recreating a death scene, which to be honest is very average and the easy way out for creating a scene. It just feels a little unthoughtful and surfaced to an audience. My point wasn't taken too well, and it seemed to unsettle Jon, as he took me out the room to say that I said this in bad timing. I think he feels a little uneasy as there is a lot of work to do, but my argument is, if we hadn't waisted so much time on learning a song that will now not even be in the show, and doing these plastic warm ups that have no purpose towards the subject, we might of had more time to create deeper emotional rooted scenes, that project this seriously intense subject.
On a lighter note it does seem that we will have a play to perform Monday at the Arts Depot. Everybody has learnt their stage directions, lines and individual scenes, I just feel a disheartened that the emotion is missing, and that the directors forgot all about this. It seems a little strange as I though that's what is the most important thing about art, to reach a deeper emotion in relation to a subject that is being presented.